Transfer Update

Yesterday was one of the most nerve-wracking days of my life. I was so nervous for the embryo transfer, and was really "not there" during most of my work meetings. I was getting ready to take A to Whole Foods to get some things before the transfer, when I looked down and saw I'd missed a call from our RE. I've never gotten a call an hour before a transfer before, so I knew it wasn't good news.

I tried calling him back, and he was doing another transfer. So of course, I was freaking out. I went downstairs and met with A and explained that I'd just gotten a message, and was pretty sure it meant that one of the embryos didn't make it. I was crying a little, and mostly just being a complete nutcase.

We went to Whole Foods and went back to my house for a few minutes to pick up Mr. Bee, who to my surprise, was on the phone in total lawyer mode with the clinic, trying to get ahold of the doctor. Apparently they'd tried to transfer him and disconnected, and in that short amount of time he'd gone into another appointment.

Because we really wanted to prepare ourselves before we went to the clinic, Mr. Bee stayed on the phone until he spoke to him. We got the news that I'd been dreading - that one of the embryos didn't survive the thaw. The good news was that the other one in the straw had, and was already hatching. Since we only had four embryos left, we had to decide if we wanted to unfreeze the remaining embryos and choose the best two to transfer, or if we just wanted to try one. Even though those were our last ones, we knew we'd have the best odds with two, so we unfroze all of the embryos.

We got to the clinic and waited a while before being seen by the doctor. When we got back to the room, he let us know that of the other two that were unthawed, one of those didn't look like it would make it either. I was a little crushed (and a lot overwhelmed), but really grateful to have two good ones. They gave A a valium, and Mr. Bee requested one for me so I could actually chill out and calm down for the transfer.

As far as that went, everything looked perfect. Our doctor let us know that A's lining looked amazing (something I've never heard myself!) and that she had an amazing obstetrical history. All good things to hear, although they'd probably be random compliments to hear on the street.

Mr. Bee ended up wearing a pink shirt and blue bow tie, and I had pink nails and blue toenails, just for a little extra luck.

So now we wait! A is so wonderful in person, and such a trooper. I'm so glad that through this process I've found a lifelong friend. I know a lot of people aren't as lucky.

Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers, and I really hope to come back with good news soon!

Newsflash: We Have a Transfer Date

So excited to say that we officially have a transfer date! Now to keep busy until September 5. Fortunately work has been incredibly busy and I'll be in my best friend's wedding in two weeks, so I have lots of things going on. 

I'd be lying if I didn't admit how extremely nervous I am for everything. Since we've run into everything from canceled cycles to chemical pregnancies, I don't want to get my hopes up. I do feel more hopeful than I have in a very long time, and I'm so incredibly grateful already for our wonderful surrogate. Hoping that the next few weeks fly by and that I have amazing news to report back soon!

Transfer Day and Baby Bees!

Today was the big day - the transfer. We ended up thawing all 20 embryos and growing them out for 2 more days (which makes them 5 day embryos). Out of the 20, 8 ended up making it, and we were thrilled. 2 of the embryos were hatching blastocysts, which means that they were already hatching out of their shell and as my doctor said, "Looking for you". Corny, but I almost cried.

I need to back up a little to tell you about how you have to drink enough to have a full bladder before the transfer. Then, the nurse came out and gave me a Valium before walking me to my RE's office to tell me about the embryos. As soon as he started telling me that some people don't feel the Valium, it hit me. I could not stop laughing and probably saying the silliest things.

We transferred two amazing looking embryos. I say amazing because that's what I was told. Truthfully, they look like little peanut amoebas, but I don't care what they look like as long as they turn into healthy babies.

They were playing some soothing music in the transfer room that eventually started turning into the Star Trek soundtrack or something like it. Everything was hilarious to me. It took everything I had not to laugh the entire time, especially since the nurse was pushing down on my full bladder the whole time. As they put the embryos in the song hit the crescendo and I had to keep thinking about other things so I didn't die laughing. We asked the RE if he planned that one.

I lay on the table for another half hour, but during that time I couldn't deal with the music and the possibility I could laugh out my babies. Fortunately Mr. Bee asked the doctor to change the music (THANK GOD). So now I'm on "princess time", laying in bed with the dogs, eating Trader Joe's Chocolate and Sea Salt Almonds and praying lots and lots. I'll have my Beta in 10 days, but honestly I'll probably take a pregnancy test at home beforehand. Thanks for sticking by me through all of this!