Monday, February 14, 2011

Waiting for Bee

I'm kind of a blog addict. I have a regular blog and a Tumblr. I write for a living. Not writing about trying to get pregnant has been killing me, but as much as I want to share my trials and tribulations with my blog friends and connect with everyone about the issue I've been too scared to because I don't want my co-workers/boss/stalkers to know every intimate detail about my life. As much as I love to divulge.

Writing in a diary would be one thing, but I know that so many people out there struggle to get pregnant that I wanted to share my story and hear yours.

As a quick backstory, I've had health problems for the past few years. I was diagnosed with Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome in September of 2009 and have worked very hard to deal with my condition, which caused multiple hospital visits, months of being house-bound and general miserability. I'm not cured, but (knock on wood) I'm doing much, much better than anticipated, and much better than so many people who suffer from this condition.

After stopping my medication for my condition, I also stopped birth control pills in October of 2010. I had a few days of breakthrough bleeding after stopping, but never got a period again. After 60 days and multiple negative pregnancy tests, I went into my doctor who started me on Provera.

I originally went on birth control pills at 16 because of irregular periods, and my doctor was convinced that I don't ovulate. I was started on 50 mg. of Clomid and it was determined that I ovulated my first round, but never got a period after. Another million negative pregnancy tests later, I went back to my doctor who put me on another round of Provera and 50 mg. of Clomid.

This is my 2nd round, and after an ultrasound today, things don't look spectacular for this round either. I'm waiting for my doctor to review my results and will post more tomorrow, but the doctor I saw wasn't very impressed by my lack of follicles and lining.

Anyway, I'm not exactly what direction this blog is going to head, what sort of rambling I'll do and where this journey will take me. I do know that getting pregnant is not as easy as it sounds. If you ever doubt that, take a look at the Trying to Get Pregnant boards on

I love my husband with all of my heart and have always wanted more than anything to be a mother. I can't wait to have a child with both of our looks and personality and watch him or her grow up into a spectacular human being. I'll step off of my soap box now, but thanks for letting me get everything off of my chest. I hope to have some good news to report sooner rather than later. Till then, I'll be waiting for Bee.


  1. Oh, the waiting is so hard and so isolating!!! Thinking of you during this journey!

  2. I'm here for you! So glad you decided to share your thoughts with us.