Thursday, April 14, 2011

More waiting and whining

Yesterday was a bad day for me.

It started out when I hit a bird with my car while I was driving to work. I've never killed a thing in my life. I was a vegetarian for 13 years. I live at altitude, so birds actually fly really low here. It was just my luck (and the bird's) that it collided with my windshield. I freaked out and then cried for about 20 minutes at work. I didn't see it in the road after so I'm praying that it was just stunned and it's ok. God only knows I don't need a ghost bird being all invisible and pecking my head all day. 

I've been trying to get in touch with someone at my RE's office for 3 days now to figure out costs and treatment. I knew I was going on Femara, but didn't know what the injectable was. Someone called me back yesterday to tell me the other drug is Bravelle. I don't know how long I'll need to take it for, but one vial costs $100. Online I've found that most people do at least 5 days of it which = $500. 

On top of that, even though my insurance said they'll cover 6 visits, they really only cover the initial consultation. Which means my last ultrasound was $200 that I still owe. Along with the next treatment I'll have to have at least 2 more ultrasounds, which = $400 total.

Oh, and I also found out yesterday we owe $350 in taxes.

Numbers overwhelm me, so I'm just going to round up and say that everything costs a million dollars. It seems like it. 

I went on a message board yesterday and was asking some other people about the treatment. They were all on-board that if I'm going through all of this with medications, ultrasounds and giving away all my money that I should just do IUI to get a better shot. IUI = $400. I actually thought it would be a whole lot more. Then I went to my Junior League meeting and sat with all of my pregnant friends who talked about being pregnant, including my friend who went off the pill the same time I did and is having twins. Talk about a crappy day. Happy for them, wish I was happy for me.

So now we're talking about waiting a little longer until Mr. Bee's job is secured for at least another year. Which made me cry more because I feel like I've already been waiting forever, I'm just getting older and all of my good eggs are dying. And I want to have kids earlier rather than later so my parents will be around a lot longer to enjoy them. Can you tell I'm dramatic and PMSing? Thank god for Peppermint Patties.


  1. Oh I am so sorry that you're having a bad day(days). Being around pregnant friends is definitely hard. I saw two pregnant friends on Tuesday and I was just so jealous. So sorry to hear about the insurance issues. Money is stressful enough anyway- and when you add on the extra stress it can sometimes just feel like too much. I hope you guys get everything figured out. Waiting would definitely be tough. I hope things will work out so that you won't have to put it off. I'm thinking about you. Hoping good luck comes your way soon!

  2. Ah hun, this is crazy. Are you absolutely sure you need all these meds? I'm sure you have figured it out, but it just seems like SO much money :( I know it'll work out for you! Xo

  3. :( I'm so sorry. I say don't wait. There will never be a perfect time and you'll never have enough money. Are your parents able to help at all?

    On a lighter note, that picture was the inspiration for my Halloween costume a few years ago. I taught the short story to my high school students and dressed up like Tipi Hendren from the movie. It was a big hit!

  4. I've nominated you for the Versatile Blogger Awards! You can pick up your prize badge at my blog; then keep the nomination train rolling by honoring those blogs that touch your heart

  5. I too have nominated you for the Versatile Blogger Awards. You can pick up your prize badge at my blog; then keep the nomination train rolling by honoring those blogs/bloggers that have inspired you and touched your heart!